Beautiful Suicidal

Sunday, August 22, 2010

its always like this.,
damn right its always like this.

to everyone's eyes iam always stupid!.

whatever i do, did and done,
has never been appreciated.
and it wont be enough for one.
instead;
what people do, did and done wrong,
iam to be blamed.

iam not god i cant create wonders,
iam not superman carry this burden,
iam not spiderman be there as and when,
iam not any predictor to predict anything.

in the beginning i tot i was,
over with everything,
yet fark!.
it didnt.
the heartache still appeared,
somehow.

but if eu still didnt notice,
let me tell eu this,
eu always say you you you,
and i always me me me,
fault is always on me.

never eurs.

misunderstand my meaning,
its my fault,
i misunderstand eurs its also my fault.

when is it eurs?
or was it eurs?

eu said iam never there,
this clearly means that iam transparent.

since my presence is nothing,
den i shall turn my presence to,
disappearance.

eu said i dont understand eu, didnt noe eu?
if i didnt why was what i said & think,
right?
tell me why?

dont tell me its coincidence.

to eu what i do, did and done,
will never be enough.

thanks.

and to people that still wanna lie,
to me kindly just go ahead.
eu wanna continue acting go ahead too,
iam seriously tired to take off eur mask.

i suddenly find that i have,
no one to turn to anymore.
=}

not because they are not there for me,
but its because i never know whats up,
on their mind!>

the lies,
the acts,
the scams,
who knows whats next.

iam afraid to be alone,
for everything ahead of me,
yet iam much more afraid,
of people around me.
=}

i just wanna be in my room,
on my bed.
with my headset,
covering my ears,
and my pillow covering my eyes.

i dont wanna hear things,
i dont wanna listen,
i dont wanna see things,
i dont wanna see.

avoiding perhaps,
i rather be avoiding.
den being hurt.

4200 became 1450.
thanks ar.

mine became eurs.
my hardwork became eur credits.

my stuffs became eurs.
why dont take my bills as eurs too!.

if iam going back,
i dont even think eu will get the chance,
to even speak.

wanna try me?
i will make all eur debts,
become bad debts.
whats mine i will take back,
whats good from eu,
i will take it,
whats bad from eu,
i will make it worse,
for eu.
=}

no pain no gain,
yeah.
i had my pain and i gain from it,
if eu force my to,
i will double eur medicine to repay eu.

* CaN Euu PlEasE rEspEcT mY PrIvaCy-