Beautiful Suicidal

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

`ash&lightning gave birthday to another baby.
suspose to have two but,
5th baby was dead.
={

so i left with 1,2,3,4&6.

shall let lightning rest and,
let little swan do the job.
=x

iam rather feeling down recently,
so i shall do a little rant over here.

anyway have been looking after my babycousin.
should i say he is rather pain in the ass.
=X

he is always testing my patience & tolerance.

iam rather tired of looking after him,
its worse den working.

7am got to be up,
prepare and wait for him to arrive.

play with him,
watch cartoons with him,
smell his smelly pillow.

hoax him to sleep,
hoax him to eat,
clean up the mess he do,did/done.

when he leave in the night iam expected,
to sleep.

and wake up early the next day.
hey where's my life sia.

when he play i wanna watch my own channel,
he will wan me to off it.
if i doesnt off it he will cry.

if i doesnt share my tibits with him,
he will also cry.

even i wanna watch my show during midnight,
its also wrong.

my mother will be nagging and yah find trouble,
with me!.

argh!>

so dont even need to think about going out,
to have some fresh air la.

only nights iam free is like friday & saturday.
but i will be too exhausted to go out.

argh!!.

just hope babycousin will be good everyday,
and my day should be end with a goodnight.

anyway,
haven really got the time to search for,
shops myself.
=X

i decided not to rely on anyone.
why is that so.
hahas.

easy,
anyone could just turn their back on eu,
anytime.

afterall money issue is something i always,
dont wanna get involve in.
=X

but iam gonna keep my words.
as long as,
work will be work.
personal life will be personal life.

eu do eur part,
and i will do mine.

eu can suggest things to me,
but not tell me what to do.
=X

i rather state myself very clear before anything goes wrong.

anyway quite afew people wanna push me down & see me fall,
but sad to say i will not fall now.
instead i will climb higher & taller.

even if i really will fall,
i will pull people that pushed me down & fall together.
=}

and to those who flip through my stuffs,
and intending to snatch it.
think twice.
=X

if eu're gonna use it,
den eu're seriously gonna get into trouble.
=X

if eu just wanna take it to threaten me,
den guess eu threaten the wrong person.
=X

theres alot alot more i wanna say out,
but here is never a safe place,
so its kept in a better place.

* CaN Euu PlEasE rEspEcT mY PrIvaCy-