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`Roland Kellie,
`Beautiful Suicidal.
`o5may1989
`Taurus
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if eu'r not happy reading anything,
here in my blog,
kindly just LEAVE.
Just let me Rant what i want to.
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009

erm...
hehes.

some pictures of my cuts.
few weeks ago.











if eu doubt them,
den iam speechless.
=]

but the scars are not fake.
unlike eu fakers freaks!.
i cant stand eu people le.
just stay away from me.
______________________________

iam happy,
but at the same time sad.
and etc...
=X

iam having this type of,
mix feeling recently.

its kinda weird,
sometimes theres this,
heartbroken yet,
sweet feeling.
=}

sometimes theres this,
angry yet,
lovely feeling.

sometimes theres this,
wanna give up yet,
still wanna hold on feeling.

sometimes theres this,
no point yet,
hoping for miracle feeling.

theres still more...

but all this just make me feel,
silly,
stupid,
useless,
mindless,
&
speechless.

LOLs.

so i decided to go out,
instead of staying home.
being troubled.
=}

hahas.

anyway went walking around,
my area.
haven done so for like,
quite some time le.
=}

things around didnt change,
but i realised i was the one that changed

ive change to someone,
that dont seems to be me.
=X

theres reasons why,
i say ive changed to,
someone that dont seems to be me le.
=X

for examples:

i dont noe what,
iam fighting for.

i dont noe what,
iam living for.

i dont noe who,
the F am i !.
=X

okie.
iam going out again,
after i eat and bathe.
=}

i wont be home tonight,
i guess.
=

i guess iam staying over,
near a hospital.
=}

hahas.

i want to have fun tonight!
after so long.
=X

oh and yah!.
130+hours past le!>
=}

i can do it!>
jia you.

iam feeling much much better today.
so peeps dont worry.
=}
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*updates*
okie.
for those i strike out above,
is because i didnt able to do it.

so yah hahas.
iam stucked at home.
so poor thing.
once again.
=X

i didnt manage to sneak out LOLs.
anyway!.

people!.
iam NOT being grounded!>
is just that my parents,
dont wan anything to happen,
to me esp when iam not well.!

so DONT assume!.
thanks!.

daddy, mummy said
i will be can go out once,
iam FEELING better!.

but provided,
the another one person allow me,
to go out MYSELF!.

* CaN Euu PlEasE rEspEcT mY PrIvaCy-


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