Beautiful Suicidal

Sunday, May 31, 2009

just finish my bowling tournament.
hahas.

had three rounds of it.
funny but tiring.

i only slept like 1hour 30mins.
or maybe less den that.

got force to leave my cosy bed lah.
={

anyway was like able to vent,
some frustrations while having,
that tournament just now.
=X

and i also realise that my hand,
is like not fully recovered,
from all the falling i had last week.

glad that my practical exams,
are all over.

be it good or bad.
its over already.
iam happy enough.

iam sitting alone at starbucks,
waiting for nico to be down,
to pass him some stuffs and ya,
i need to leave.
or should i say,
i wan to leave.
=X

i seriously have no idea,
why is all this happening.
i also dont wish to find out.

i just wanna remain,
to be kept in the dark.

do whatever that please eu guys.
iam not gonna say or ask no more.

iam sick and tired of this and that,
i guess eu guys didnt noe,
that i actually noe whats happening,
behind my back.

and whats going on recently yeah.
so sad to say iam aware of everything.

which is making me out of mood.
thanks ar guys.
eu guys seriously can create wonders.

making my mood go,
down down down.
speechless with eu guys.

anyway i changed my handphone number,
the old one is no longer in use.

send me an email.
if eu wan my new number.
dont send if eu cant be bothered.

i will be much happier.

anyway holidays is like just,
a week away only,
and yeah.

its time for me to rest.
and stay away from anything,
and everything.

i will be starting my treatment,
on the 12june09.
so people after that date,
till my school start best is not,
to contact me.
because i dont wish to contact anyone,
i mean ANYONE!.

so i hope i wont be able to,
see my name appear here and there.
or hear this and that.

and i can be all by myself,
and of course look after myself,
dont need any care or concern from,
anyone!.

and i mean ANYONE once again!.

try feeling what iam feeling right now.
dont bullcraps if eu cant.
and oh ya please,
dont bullcraps around man!>

compare mine with eur's,
eurs is like nothing compared to mine,
so please dont say how serious it is.

stop acting oh so poorthing!.
fARk 0ff man.!

LOSER!.

face the facts lah!
please dont push blames around,
here and there.
no one will like it.

esp dont push people around,
they are not a toy.
they have feelings too.

dont assume anything,!
question me for eur doubts.

dont think eu are so so smart.

* CaN Euu PlEasE rEspEcT mY PrIvaCy-