Beautiful Suicidal

Thursday, November 29, 2007

ehhey.
im like bored bored bored.

anyway went out with jazlyn,
in the afternoon.
hahas.

had pastamania.
i wanted to watch movie,
but it was kinda late.
so we went to walk,
around causeway first.

bought clothes for my nephew.
=}

den we went to buy sushi.
and went canava to slacked,
and talked.

kinda lazy to watch movie,
after talking so we skipped it.

went pasa malam,
bought some stuffs.

den headed back to,
jazlyn's place.

watched television.
made our nails.

den had our dinner.
slacked awhile.
and came back home.
=}

anyway my mood is kinda spoilt,
by two person.
_______________________

1st person*;
`my boyfriend.
he took my sarcasm,
as a compliment.

and never really,
understand what i want.

maybe im too difficult,
to be understand.
i guess.

babe yes,
maybe eu think,
its normal for me to say eu,
as a spoilt brat already.

because i having saying,
that since we'r together bah.

but i couldnt stand no more.
and i wish that eu will,
see this post.

i dont say stupid things,
for nothing.
i really mean it.
eu'r spoilt by eur parents.

eu will only do things after,
we quarrel or when things turns bad.

and and and!.
i wanna noe how eu feel.
whenever we quarrel or me,
whenever i go crazy.
not eu just sitting at somewhere.
mumbling things out from eur mouth,
IF EU WANT TO MUMBLE,
DEN GO SOMEWHERE,
I CANT SEE!
WHY INFRONT OF ME?

attraction my attention?
maybe so.
but whenever i asked eu,
the answer that i have is.
NOTHING.

second time i ask.
NOTHING.

third time i ask.
EU WALKED AWAY.

i freaking dont understand,
what the hell eu'r trying,
trying to mean by that.

i cant stand no longer.
babe please read this,
and understand what im,
trying to say.
dont get my intention wrong.

*thanks*
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2nd person*;
`my ex boyfriend.
we'r over.

eu'r the cause of our break up.
why now cry over spilled milk?

tot eu took me as eur atm.
and when im broke,
we went into cold war.
eu couldnt take it.
and suggested break up.

and its like 2 year back.
why still pestering me,
for a patch up?

im still broke,
if eu dont noe.

its not like i didnt,
change my number,
I DID!.
AND SOMEHOW,
eu got my number again!>.
so i decided not to be mean.
so i didnt mind being just fren.

i rejected eu time,
and time again.
i sick of wasting msges,
rejecting eu.

esp after rejecting eu,
eu will msg alot of rubbish like dying,
and blahhblahh.
even if i dont reply eu.
it still turns out the same.

anyway,
eu wanna stop contacting me.
why must i change my number!.
im love my number alot.!
why not eu just dont take a phone,
or even just die.

since eu have been saying it,
since two years ago.
but i just dont see eu dying!>.

GET A LIFE
low life beggar.
__________________________

im feeling much better now.
=}

saying something i had been,
keeping inside me,
until now i just feel that,
im sick and tired.

sometime i wish we could,
switch places,
so that eu could understand.

ms. roland signing off.
tatas.

* CaN Euu PlEasE rEspEcT mY PrIvaCy-