Beautiful Suicidal

Friday, June 01, 2007

two nites ago,
i couldnt sleep.

but i didnt came online.
or blog about it.
cause my eyes hurts.

no worries i wasnt crying,
for anyone.

my eyes was just itchy,
so i kept on rubbing it,
lols.

yah.
my boy and i had ended.

maybe yes we have,
the different definition of love.
but hey,
what eu are now,
is what i was in the past.

i tot in love theres something,
called sacrifice?

hahas.

one day if eu have change.
to a better person.
we might be together again.

but this got to be before me,
changing my mind.

did eu really accept who i am?

yes, we should take one step at a time.
but hey!
this isnt our first time together.
understand?

sometime eu admit eu was asking,
too much,
but it just shows that eu care>??

No way.
i hate people asking too much of me,
and in fact,
didnt eu say take one step at a time?

yes eu did try not to argue with me,
all the time.
by what way??

not replying,
switch of eur phone,
or reply me by saying eu win.

yes i admit,
im at fault too.
i shouldnt force eu,
to go out with my frens.

but hey hey hey,
didnt eu ask me out with eur frens too!>.
since eu are not prepared,
to go out with my frens.
don keep giving me excuses.

town we last minute tell eu.
ice skating don noe how to.
escape too far and eu need to study.

in the end eu tell me what?.
EU ARE ANTI SOCIAL?
THANKS.
WHY NOT TELL ME AT THE FIRST PLACE.

instead of wasting my time,
to think of where we could go.

eu dont wan me to quarrel with my frens,
becos of eu?
if eu go out with us.

NO WORRIES!

me and my bestfren,
we might quarrel over stupidest things.
but not this.
eu'r still not up to standard for,
both of us to argue over with.

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anyway i went dinner with my dad yesterday.
at amk.
hahas had prawns crabs, and my lamb chop.
lols.
im gonna grow fat if i continue eating,
that way!.

looked at my dad and godfather,
drinking i feel like drinking too!>.
but i dont drink 'Beck'.

daddy asked me to bring either,
jazlyn or my boyfren down,
from steamboat few laters later.
but jazlyn will be in malaysia.

boyfren?
no thanks.
lucky we had ended.
or else i dont noe what,
excuses will he say this time.

so i told daddy,
i will be alone.
as what i am always.

=}

erm. anyway is my font too small?
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im like arguing with,
my 'boyfren'
whats the point of,
asking eu.
when we are having so much probs.
and unsolved matters.
we had ended
!!

ANYWAY
people that read this post,
he is not at fault.
is just me.

DONT BLAME ANYTHING ON HIM!>
FAULT ALL LIES ON ME!>.
IM SORRY.

anyway jazlyn might be able to go,
for dinner with daddy.
=}

but what i need most is,
just a simple hug.
and words of comfort.

thanks.

im going out of singapore too.
=}

* CaN Euu PlEasE rEspEcT mY PrIvaCy-