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`Roland Kellie,
`Beautiful Suicidal.
`o5may1989
`Taurus
`Complicated


if eu'r not happy reading anything,
here in my blog,
kindly just LEAVE.
Just let me Rant what i want to.
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Saturday, March 31, 2007

the words on this picture,
is written for those,
who use me again and again.

={







anyway;

few days ago was his birthday.
so many memories we had in the past.
kinda miss them =}

went to school once this week
=#

and im being screwed kinda badly.
yesterday by my dad.

seriously i feel so useless.
cause i cant even make up my mind.
whether do i wanna take,
n level again for o's,
go ite or start working.

i have been questioning myself,
real long ago.
but till now.
i still cant find an answer for myself.

same goes,
to relationship.
and frenship.
LoLs.
i admit im just a failure.

been sleeping my
days and nites away.

march isnt my month!>.
somehow 2k just flew away.
and my ke lian de handphone.
im gonna miss eu so much.
somehow i lost my ez-link card!>.

i kinda bu jian alot of things.
in march,
thank god i didnt bu jian my love ones.
=}

hais.

the phone im carrying now starting,
to give me some problems.
so if im unable to reach,
please drop me a msg.
i will try to get back to eu people soon.

tried finding someone to talk to.
but somehow,
that person erm.
nevermind,
i noe what the excuse would,
so im not gonna msg or call,

its just a waste of my handphone bills.
=#

'
girl;
~`most of the time im afraid,
to get hurt,
thats why i choose to give up first.

i think maybe because,
i love freedom
thats why i go into a relationship,
but i don noe how,
to let others enter my world.

boy;
~`couldnt i give eu 100% confident?
don eu noe i care for eu alot?

girl;
~`i treasure this security eu give,
but im worried that,
there's a dead line to it.

that's why the feeling i have everyday.
is still lonely.
and thats why i need to be alone,
to think myself.

'
*
this is taken from a song,
there's still a long long way to go,
the way both of them talk.
so so related to my life.

but just so hard to translate it.
and i just don noe whats the title.

im always listening to it.
hahas.

its darn meaningful.
*

believe me,
one day i will noe,
is just the matter of time.

i don noe what i wan now,
but i believe one day i will.
im stupid for now i can say.

* CaN Euu PlEasE rEspEcT mY PrIvaCy-


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