Beautiful Suicidal

Monday, February 12, 2007

ehhey,
im back to post;

been thinking alot.
for the past few days.

but maybe,
prehaps,
it turn out to be useless.
and pointless.

sometimes we just gonna,
have force ourself to forget;
what we shouldnt rmb.

~yeahs`

' changed my blog skin to start anew,
for this new year.
=}

yah~
went out just now,
like he/she bite me,
lightly thou.

and i bite he/she back,
and it was a hard one.
=}

he/she shouted,
" hey eu yi ya huan ya is it."
and i said,
" yes! , and wo ye hui yi chou,
bao chou!"
and i left.

somepeople should noe what i,
mean for that,

~yeahs`

anyway valentine's day,
is around the corner.

made things for afew people.
and i had gave away some to,
some people already.

what i had made.
is just to let eu guys,
noe i still care and,
rmb eu guys.
no other reasons.

anyway;

some said its nice,
some said its alright,
some said its ok,
some said its omg,
some said its frightening.

" i say eu should try it eurself,
not noe the real ans. "

and give me comments over it.
=}

had my valentine's day presents already.
=}

hahas.

and from someone i didnt expect,
to get from.
~thanks`

i wish to have many many ang bao.
=6
hahas.
its not the matter of having,
big or small ang baos.
its the matter of having,
big or small amount,
=6

i noe im greedy.

i wanna go chinatown!.
whos so kind to accompany?.

hahas,

i might be silly,
might be stubborn,
might be wild,
in the past.

i might be stupid,
might be crazy,
might be out of my mind.
if i do all those things,
inside my mind.

i tried over dosing,
wanted to stop myself,
from thinking of things,
that had happen.

i cut myself,
wanted to end my life.
just because,
i wanted to hide myself.

i tortured myself.
just wanted to cover up,
what had happen and,
stop being questioned.

rejected all helps,
around me.
not listening to any advice,
from anyone.

trying ways,
to do crazy things.
not giving face,
to anyone that stops me.

theres never a u-turn,
in anyones life,
as time doesnt allows us to.

all i could say was,
what i did was just me being,
~Coward & silly!`

to run away from things,
i should face.
to hide away from the facts,
in this world.

~this is specially for that someone~
`he noes better den anyone else`

"~im getting tired of you,
dragging me down,
putting me through,
a lesson or two,
before i go my own way,
i just got to say.

im tired of love,
feeling so misplaced,
time for me to go,
i guess eu noe,
we are better off on our own.

i noe this isnt gonna work,
dont call me on the phone,
because im all out of words,
thinking about all the ways that,
we have changed.

there was the time,
i thought you were the one,
having some fun,
what an illusion,
cause you were trying,
to take control of me,
that shouldnt be,
i need to be free of this confusion.

dont give me a guilt trip,
because im so over it. "

* CaN Euu PlEasE rEspEcT mY PrIvaCy-