Beautiful Suicidal

Thursday, December 21, 2006

my day was darn bad.
but at least i had some happy moments.

just got home.
daddy was like walkin to,
the dustbin,
out my house.
and i got screwed at there.
'cant eu wait till im home'

talked to them about the,
ite or repeating stuffs.

daddy say is all up to me.
and gave me a smile.
=}

but my mummy was like.
scolding and scolding me.
={

den they ended up quarrelling,
because of ME!!

i felt really bad.
of course,
adding it to my bad day.

the whole day was like raining.
and i mean raining.
some part of singapore is flooded.
how nice.
free swimming pool'~!

doggy was darn poor thing.
and yah really poor thing.
={

got prepared.
slacked and talked on the phone.

headed to jazlyn's house,
thanks girl for doing my hair.
just because im like LAZY.

left her house,
and cabbed to admiralty.

waited for people.

and headed to dxo.

the queue was darn long but,
thanks royce.

saw so many people there.

jordon joined us later.
and rite before his turn.
there was like groups of people,
arguing and i think fighting.
over some stupid and silly stuffs.

so yah,
ben find me for a dance.
hahas.

things didnt go well,
some black face here and there.

anyway!
im not a toy.
giving up me for the others,
doesnt mean im gonna grant,
any of them.
in fact i will grant none of them.

i may been a bitch or whatever last nite.
but im who im.
i tot my feelings was stabled.
and everything was.
but! not now no more.

and i believe.
good things only come once.
if eu miss it.
its too late,
to regret.

i never been and toy.
the feelings is real bad.

everything was just a dream,
which was just made from lies.
theres no excuse my fren.
for breaking my heart.

after me being pissed off,
eu told me.
'just stay single for the time being'
and that smile
what was that meant to be.

went with ben again.
this time with jazlyn along.

went back i sat a stayed quiet.
and like jordon asked me to talked.
saw daryl and hahas,
had a hug.
and went back.

some hooha happen btw them.
am i in the wrong.
cause the main reason started,
all because of me.

thanks for everything.
the fun and laughter eu guys gave me.

the pain and sorrows,
brought to me.
im so ***** ****** now
i feel like ****** now.

a few might noe what i mean.
but yah i noe,
i must be stupid,
must be crazy,
must be out of my mind.
to dream of something,
i shouldnt have even think of.

im awake now.
but i still cant believe things.
so im gonna go out to drink.
drink my heart out.
i noe its not worth.
but im upset.

anyway,
when the party was about to end,
royce find me.
but to bad
=}
next time yeah.
there another chance don worry.

went boat quay.
talked to mak.
move on okae

i have made my mind,
and decided.

=}

i gonna go out now.

* CaN Euu PlEasE rEspEcT mY PrIvaCy-