Beautiful Suicidal

Thursday, October 05, 2006

im broke but still had to get it for some people,
and im still broke;
i noe im stupid.
im not the me anymore;

had high fever,
but im alright now =}

having trouble,
i wonder how am i gonna solve it.

having n-level,
but i didnt study.

im losing all my sense of living;

im seriously afraid of myself now.
wouldnt noe whats up on my mind;

easily hot-tempered now its me!;
easily soft hearted yes i am;

had alot to write but im lazy,
so i would only write about yesterday.

had physic and chemistry.
hahas paper wasnt hard.
its just that i didnt study.

waited for jazlyn.

den argued with mr cheong.
whatever la.
left his class he walked out,
and said this:
'you wan to play with me is it'
i shouted at him:
hey SHUT UP LA.
and he slammed the door.
i cant be bothered with it;

he called mr basiri;
is that how u spell?
den i got caught.
hahas;

had to write some report and stuffs.
jowell saw me at HOD.
so she came and asked.
den left.

second time heard this but from different teacher.
about mr cheong.:
HE HAD TO COMPLAIN ABOUT EVERY THING.
EVEN SMALL ONES ALSO HE CANT HANDLE,
WONDER WHY HE BECAME A TEACHER?
HOW DID HE HANDLE THOSE BB BOYS.

hahas,
maybe BB to him stand for BO BALLS~
kendrick said this when i told them;
laughs~`

i went to one of the table to write my report.
i just finished my name and class,
den i crushed the paper and left.

went home;
got changed.

went sembawang;
to find adeline,
den went out for lunch.

babydarling called.
and my phone drop from the table.
thats when i realise my phone was ringing =}
he asked me,
whether 'trouble' find me;
i didnt noe anything so i said no.

but after our talk,
ya, i saw my missed call and msged.
'trouble' indeed was finding me.
didnt bothered cause,
i wasnt doing wat they think.

went tampines to find kendrick,
den hougang to find veron.
jpd k
and went veron house,
did big messed at her house.;

waited for cammy to come over,
for dinner.

went malaysia.
they got more stuffs.

and we came back.
and headed to kranji.

de wen, jingwen, yi ning and kelvin.
came along.

had our supper den spin around.

on car
cammy and yi ning.
on bike
jingwen and adeline.
kelvin and veron.
kendrick and edwin.
de wen and me.
when speeding.
and we seperated.
all went different ways,

but agreed to meet again in 1 1/2 hour time.
at yi ning house.

i will always remember the 2 1/4 hour =}

went yew tee.
up yi ning house.
got nagged cause de wen and me was late.
9=

watched some dvds,
and played games,
and was drinking.
jpd k
and hahas.
den sleep.

alarm rang.
took his ride again.
if only time stopped there.

called jazlyn but erm.

so went for breakfast,
den his house.
jesscia was also home
slept with her and went home.
preparing for last paper!.

im not me anymore.
me myself doesnt noe what i want.
so do say you love at this moment.
im losing my sense of living,
im losing my mind.
but i cant lose the image of you!.

* CaN Euu PlEasE rEspEcT mY PrIvaCy-