Beautiful Suicidal

Monday, August 21, 2006

FOR WATEVER SAKE CAN U GIVE ME A BREAK!;

THINGS ARE REALLY HAPPENING,
ONE AFTER ANOTHER!;
I HAD ENOUGH!;
AND I REALLY DO!;
IM GONNA BREAK DOWN SOON!;
IF THINGS CONTINUE TO GO ON LIKE THIS!;

he wrote a letter to me,
about two weeks ago;
this was some stuffs he wrote;

' i wish u could be able to visit me,
but they said u are gonna have ur examsl
so i will be visiting u instead,
in the end of aug this year;
better do ur best in ur exams,
and don flunk it again;
im gonna see ur results,
when i reach there,
don need to worry about me;
im fine now, im getting better;
so study hard, i promise u;
i will be back this time;
so see u soon;

i replied him;

' im glad that u r gettin better,
im lookin forward to see u;
do stay strong, as i love u so;
im gonna do my best for my exams;
take good care and see u den;

GOT THE NEWS FROM MY COUSIN;
HE PAST AWAY!;
16AUG06
AND I NOT ABLE TO BE THERE;
BY HIS SIDE,
AT THE EVERY LAST MOMENT IN HIS LIFE;

received a letter today;
he wrote this to me;

' i don think i can be able to be back anymore,
i will just have to stay in ur heart;
do ur best no matter wat;
i will be by ur side,
even though im not gonna be around anymore;
I LOVE U TOO,
i don wish to leave;
but i had no choice,
my time is gonna be up or,
it has been up;
please do rmb me,
and keep me in ur heart;
as i love u so!;

NOW ME TO HIM THOUGH HE CANT READ MY LETTER;
BUT HE CAN READ MY CRIES!;
I WILL! I WILL RMB U!;
FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE;
I WILL ALWAYS KEEP U INSIDE MY HEART,
HAVIN NO HOLES TO LEAK U OUT!;

i stayed with him when i was young;
he taught me stuffs,
that not everyone could do so;
gave me the time not everyone could;
brought me the joy, in my childhood time;
had the best memories in me;
keeping it real close to me!;
letting nothing leaking out of my mind!;
this time!;

took the another envolope,
which also had my name on;
open up and see;
and i saw a disc;

LOLs wat the rite,
played it with com,
it was HellShit!;
that VIDEO!;
but an uncompleted one.;
it only seems that the front part,
of that video could be repaired!;

is this really true!?
give me an answer!;
or is it just being hidden from me!;

give me a break;
i really do need one!;

[ before school ]

met a real nice guy;
offered help his own;
thanks;

met up with jazlyn,
and headed to sch,
by bus!

[ during school ]
reach just in time;

took back my papers;
passed two failed the rest!;
im sorry i failed!;

went recess with
jazlyn and wei teng;

den went to did some stuffs;
with jazlyn, douglas and marlyn;
den to class;

jazlyn douglas went back to their class;
marlyn to chinese lesson;
marlyn hahas!
ur skirt too short liao nah!;

[ after school ]

went for movie,
@!ghostgame@!
is darn nice! for those 16;
must go watch;
to those below 16;
try to go and watch!;

den some is mention above;
*not gonna repeat anymore*

msged someone;
and replied i got was;
come find me,
and i will let u noe
wat u wanna noe!
should i or not!?

i don noe!

* CaN Euu PlEasE rEspEcT mY PrIvaCy-