Beautiful Suicidal

Friday, August 25, 2006

didnt went to school;
on thursday;

hahas.

simply just because,
i drink till im half gone;
=}

woke up abt 4pm oh stress
having hang over.
went to took some pills;
its got better!
=}

hahas.

someone bought pizza for me,
and sent it personally to my house;

thanks.

sold another one packet of xy,
hahas.
sold it at 8.50 bucks;

smiles.

den went for a puff,
something real funny happen downstair.
went to interfer with their stuffs,
when i don noe them at all.

my fren was like pulling me away,
but hahas.
somehow my kaypo~ness,
spread to him too;
cause that guy,
said something cool;
that guy ' => ; wats wrong with u?

that girl ' => ; wats wats wrong with me?

that guy ' => ; last nite why pushed me away?

that girl ' => ; when did that happen?

that guy ' => ; last nite in my room,
when we wanted to, u should noe wat.

that girl ' => ; u mean when we was,
petting badly? den we was on the bed?

me and my fren stared at one another!
wanted to laughs,
but feel kinda bad so.
we two controlled.

that guy ' => ; must u say it out?
there is outsider here!;

that girl ' => ; why u afraid for?
if u afraid, u wont talk it at here,
u would have make things clear,
at ur house last nite in ur room!
not here;

hahas. that was real true!
that guy walked away.

the girl shouted ' => ; ok den
lets break up!

the guy straight away u~turn!;

funny funny funny funny;

cant help and we laughed;
their face,
their look,
their expression!.
u people should be there,
to see it urself!;

they left happily after that.
same goes to me;
went home.

was like callin jazlyn every half an hour,
after 6 pm,
because of some stuffs;

hahas.

she finally woke up abt 8.30pm;
we left our house abt 10pm

once we alighted the cab,
she told me,
i dropped ur xy;
i was really pissed;
that was for the whole nite!;
but she didnt mean it;
so forget it;

went to meet andrew, eddie and daryl;
wanted to go butter factory but
we changed and went coccolatte;

for the first time,
coccolatte dancefloor is packed!;
there was this pole dance thingy;
hahas.

there was this photographer,
took picture of us all;
erm.?

dance till the dancefloor,
almost gonna be empty i saw!;
that guy fren!:
he told me something,
and left;

the dancefloor,
was real empty;
den eddie walked off.
den me and andrew;
leaving jazlyn and daryl;

cause things kinda went over board;

eddie went down;
did some stuffs;
talked to him.
hope he got better;

andrew came down too;

we went up things really,
got worse;
eddie went out again;

went down again to;
den he no more wanna come up;

left coccolatte;

saw one group of people fighting;
screaming,
and pulling here and there;
police came;

i walked off;
they was all so kaypo;

den we went to eat;
and den being fly kite;
again!;

forget it!;

seriously, i wonder how much,
i stand as a fren to u?

had this tot of just being a fren;
cause that isnt the way i should be,
treated in the first place!;

saying sorry it don help!;

ya u always seems to be,
the one bullied by me!;
but u think properly!;
only u and i noe the true answer;

tried calling some people,
some got awake;
and some didnt;
went drinking again.
till like 9am.

and now im awake;
with no mood!;

* CaN Euu PlEasE rEspEcT mY PrIvaCy-